I soo need an ipad – when I need to write, I NEED to write.. and its been a long time since I last wrote anything (well…for me that is!)
anyway today I just felt the need to write, when inspiration hits…or when I’m pissed..a bit like now! then I need to write
so why do I need to write?
Well, I’ve just quit my job. Today was my last day and we went to the pub – I’ve had a couple of pints of cider. :-p
can’t remember the last time I drank anything alcoholic so if this isn’t 100% coherent then you know why!
But I’ve quit my job and its all a bit surreal right now – I posted up on my fb page last night that I’ve jumped out of the plane without a parachute – no safety net, no holds barred. As of now, I have no form of income…at all.
Am I crazy – quite possibly! I’ve done crazier things – like decide to come to Australia on a whim – which involved shutting down a company, selling almost everything I owned and turning up in melbourne not knowing a soul with 1 suitcase containing the remainder of everything I owned in the whole world. When I did that, it was surreal as well – I just had a feeling that it was the right thing to do – I can’t explain it, it was like a solid, unbreakable, unshakeable knowledge inside me, a total belief that I was doing the right thing and nothing or no-one could budge me from that decision – and that turned out ok!
I have that same feeling now.
This time I have quit my job so I can follow my passion which as you’ve probably become aware is diet, nutrition and being the healthiest version of you, that you can be. How many of you have struggled with weight issues? how many of you have been there and done the yo yo nightmare? how manay of you have read the magazines, followed the advice got some results only to see it all disappear and even worse go backwards? how many of you feel overwhlemed and confused about the sheer amount of contradictory information out there? for instance drink coffee, don’t drink coffee, eat eggs, don’t eat eggs, red meat is good for you, red meat is bad for you, high carb, low carb, no carb, high protein, high protein is bad for you, eat fish, be careful of the mercury in fish! its endless! how many of you are struggling to sort out the good information from the bad – even from people you know and trust and who genuinely have your best interests at heart?
how many of you have got up on stage as a result of an amazing transformation? how many of you once you get up on stage, have all of a sudden been on the recieving end of an avalanche of compliments about your physique – how many of you can’t quite believe that its YOU up there looking so amazing, how overwhelming is it to you to receive those compliments because its the first time in your life that you have received compliments on your physique? its a head spinner!
Over the course of my own transformation and journey I have come to the increasing realisation that what I want to do is help other people experience what I have – going from self conscious, having low self esteem perhaps shyness and poor body image or lack of self worth to realising you can have the health and body you always dreamed of. It doesn’t necessarily mean to get up on stage, it might just be to lose those last 2-3 stubborn kilos or it might be 25kg. I’ve been there. I’ve done it and now I want to help others navigate their way through the minefield of mis- and disinformation to find something that works for them…for the rest of their life.
Call me crazy for quitting my job – and you’re right, I am. But this is the belief I have, I believe in myself and I believe that I need to give my self the space and opportunity to make this happen. Its not going to happen overnight – when I think of the amount of work I need to do I am petrified and want to scurry back to the safety of a job – but then how would I feel? knowing I quit on my dream? how many of you do that? how many of you have a dream but you won’t let yourself dream it or even try it?
of course I have all the noise going on in my head – how am I going to pay the bills? mortgage? eat? right now – I don’t know. I am terrified, I am excited, I am overwhelmed with fear and self doubt, I am anxious and worried – its all perfectly natural when you put yourself out there to do something out of the ordinary, but at least I’m having a go – and if it doesn’t work then, no regrets, at least I tried.
Its weird, I’ve been walking round town almost in a bit of a daze – I feel light and free, I see people rushing around me – busy! busy! busy! yet as I sit here with my coffee and flourless chocolate cake (treating myself!), I am in a bubble of calmness and serenity – the fear and doubt have been put away for a while. I’m going to Port Douglas tomorrow for 4 days of well earned rest – I need to try and switch my brain off and just be, for a few days…and then…
let the craziness begin!
so what is my point? follow your passion, give yourself permission to do what you are supposed to be doing – just have a go – you will not regret it. Its never too late to get started.